Thankful

Tomorrow I become 20, feels like the years went by fast, but then again it doesn't.

Something interesting always seems to happen around my birthday, and last night history repeated itself again lol

Me and a few friends went for what originally planned to be a casual ride, and ended up seeing strange things.

On our way back from partially failed night, we had been pulled over. The officer misinterpreted the intention of what I said and started haulin ass on homie lol. Frisked down, grabbin on the junk and what not, found nothing. I made some serious eye contact with homie and we both saw right through eachother...literally a minute later he had said "see, now im starting to like you already" and we engaged in small chat about the weather differences in other states. Strange yet satisfying.

Of course, there are other minor details being left out, but the bottomline is : The cop wanted respect, freaked out when he mistakenly thought he was disrespected, saw my respect, than chilled out and respected me.

My personal belief is that he was correct, I should have not done what I did. However, that was quite an awkward reaction of him to get that offended over almost nothing. Which leads me to believe...maybe the people in the highest authority have the lowest self esteem. Which is why they crave power over other people. Just a thought.

It Gets Alot Weirder!

About 5 minutes later, we see a medium-sized car ROLLING over onto the other side of the highway and we were about 25-30 feet away! That shit looked like it was a movie, all 3 of us were chanting the casual "dude WTF". The car actually kept rolling until it landed perfectly on the tires =/

Oh lord.

My friend notified the station about the incident.

Being back home felt so good. And all of that made me thankful for the moment i have right now. And thankful for everything positive and negative in my life. Because its what makes this fucked up life so beautiful. And through the hardest time, being able to smile and make others laugh is the greatest weapon you might never know you have.

Shock Value II >>> Shock Value

The new Timbo album is hot...it took me quite a few spins to really appreciate some of the songs though...at first the jojo and miley cyrus joints are kind of questionable but after a few listens it starts sounding fun to listen to once you let your guard down. Timbaland is actually putting conscious songs out too, quite a few on here. Carry Out should be a spring/summer single.

Meet Me In The Middle grows on you pretty quick, Say Something is a trunk rattler, the nickelback joint sounded kind of strange on paper but its not bad...timbo has the ability to take any artist and add music that compliments they're style well. Morning After Dark is an absolute smash, ("Way I Are" territory) the Katy Perry joint is different...i wasnt crazy about the chorus at first, im still not sure if its growing on me yet but the whole feel of the song has an electro-pop-house track with broadway-midwestern-esque vocals, prob. the standout track on here.

Can You Feel It is pretty psychedelic, has a freestyle/80's kinda feel...sounds awesome lol. Ease Off The Liquor is standard Timbo banger shit, on some jungle-boogie fireworks synths poppin shit...vibrant bassline that adds crazy swag.

The next 4 songs are alternative rock/electro tracks, i havent really took time to break them down but the one song "Timothy Where You Been" where he says "im like a warm summer breeze in the swimming pool...im cool" and you remember how many songs you rocked in the 90's that timbo produced...how many aaliyah, missy elliot and ginuwine tracks he put that bump to. Im not crazy about boast tracks but this one has a refreshing acoustic guitar melody to it.

The last two songs, "The One I Love" and "Symphony" are a confusing way to end an album but you gotta let your mind work it out. Keri Hilson is always a pleasant feature...always delivers. And the outro contains the most rhymes, which was kind of cool to close things out with. Its like he started Shock Value out with hip hop and melded into pop/rock/house/club. On part 2, its reverse. All of the pop ballads come first, then the harder shit.

Overall id say its better than the previous volume, possibly timbo's best work to date in my opinion. Artist selections could have been a little less super-pop (jojo, katy perry, miley cyrus, chad kroager) and possibly more hardcore punk-pop (lady gaga, rihanna, kat deluna) shit even Lily Allen would sound dope on a timbo track.

8.7

Highlight Song:
Now im not a fan of B2K, but the dude Omarion can actually put some good shit out...ive heard like 4-5 of his singles that were dope and this one stuck out most to me. Im 99% sure Timbaland produced the beat, and Kat Deluna is one of the most underrated chicks in the game. The backup vocals she does during the chorus is ill...(the oooh oooh), idk who arranged the melody of this song but there is not ONE note that sounds out of place.

Don't Be Afraid To Love Your Life

If your generally a happy person, this blog post isn't necessarily targeting you. I like using this website to pass along advice that I pick up or learn in life to help other people out there who haven't seen or experienced what I have yet a better chance at understanding what they are going through...

Being happy is something you learn to be. Its never given to us. We can be spoiled as a child and given a toy everytime we cry, but growing up as adults we will react the same way, and if you don't have a billion dollar budget to pay personal assistants to take care of your every need, than you can go no where in the world, with a crybaby attitude as such.

The sad thing is, the more you try to convince yourself that you are something your NOT, the more you become it. This is my personal conclusion of course, im still learning how to be happy in my life. Ive been through alot of bullshit, and everyone goes through bullshit, so if anyone out there feels like they are singled out, remember that there is someone out there that's in alot more pain than you are.

Thinking positive requires the ability to control your mind, people who allow negative thoughts to consume the every day life tend to let their mind control them instead. Ive been one of those people, and the more you think its NOT possible to change, it never will be.

You can be happy about anything in life. Its good to remind yourself of the good qualities you have, but never ignore the bad ones. Instead, embrace your faults and look towards yourself for what you hate about everyone else. If you love yourself, its alot easier to love other people.

I don't know why i give a fuck, so you can read this and ask yourself "why does he care?". Or, you can assume i have too much time on my hands and paint whatever perception you want of me. But in the end, that never mattered to ME. I, (the writer), only write for the people paying attention. They are the one's who need another voice somewhere in this world to convey the thoughts they cant.

If i can accomplish one thing before i leave this world, hopefully it will be influencing people to embrace the truth that i've found in my life, which is that Everything is Everything, and Nothing is Nothing. There are no limits, never was, and never will be.

Peace!

Law Of Love Release Date 12.15.09

Very small chance it might change, but this one should be the official date!

So many good things to come, many more performances, new music, a new mixtape on the way for free (a little something for my listeners, merry christmas lol) and oh yeah, my album comes out 5 days before my birthday and 10 days before christmas so make sure you get your kids a copy! lol

But seriously, thank you to everyone who keeps bumpin my shit and lets keep the positive vibes alive...1

Also, the whole Vampire phenomenon is kind of corny to me (personal preference) but this timbo track is stupid sick...(for old agers, thats a compliment)

Deep Minded People...

...Come in all shapes and sizes.

(CAUTION: Most of what i write about is a reflection of what ive experienced, im almost speaking to myself in a sense, but hopefully someone out there can relate)

Some have good things to say about you, some come up with bad things to say about you.

Some come off misleading, because they may have an outstandingly social persona, and its possible to underestimate people like that.

But my bottom line is, seeing the positive in people is the FIRST step to seeing the positive in YOU.

Once you stop assuming that everyone is the same just because they're not you, you can focus more on just being who you are and learning to love others for who they are.

We should never be afraid to think outside the box.

This logo for example, The Vitruvian Man


The way i see "the box", would be his third dimensional, modern thinking pattern. Trapped in the box, there are limits to his movement...

However, outside "the box", would be the fourth dimensional, alternative to modern thinking patterns, which some may call "abstract" or...original, perhaps. And that analogy in fact is what I base most of my thoughts around, something that could potentially be creative while productive.

I was raised in the 90's, so my mind travels 9,000 miles a minute lol. With that said, i hope someone out there has an idea of what im talking about.

Surround yourself with light, and you will never live in the dark. See the positive in everything, and work around the negative.

Peace

On Pilot

Would you rather drive or be a passenger?

There's only one driver, and three passengers.

Law Of Love

Love is freedom.

All that is, deserves to be.

Interruption is the enemy.

Non Compos Mentis

Tough love is beautiful

Growing pains are satisfying enough to quit addictions

Sonic The Hedghehog

Damn they did the boy Charles Hamilton dirty. I know he made mistakes but c'mon man...some people don't have role models in they're life to help them grow as people. Everyone tells white lies, everyone makes mistake.

But the dude was doing his thing, musically. He should have laid low and kept putting music out...oh well. In the end i don't care about his personality because i don't hang out with him, i listen to his music and i'm sure the majority of people that hate on him for his mistakes don't know him in person, so that shouldn't concern them.

The internet is a dangerous place.

Peace
Show in Anaheim this coming sunday at the House Of Blues!

Fiction

What if you stopped thinking for a minute.

Just stopped analyzing everything so much...and didn't try to prove a point.

Close your eyes, and listen to yourself breathe. Don't consciously breathe, just let it naturally happen. Pay attention to the way you exist...there is 2 sides to everything I believe.

I would say I regret everything negative i said, but i dont. I acknowledge everyone makes mistakes, me included. The important part is learning from them and moving on.

I dont know everything, im not smarter than anyone, i just follow my own path and im content with my lifestyle. Growing up is hard when your all alone to do it by yourself...but its beautiful at the same time. Because the struggle is worth it.

And the song of the day, J Dilla "Wont Do", great video, great instrumental.

The Next Chick To Pop Off...

Catchy hook? - Check
Pop/Electro/Techno/House beat? - Check
Lyrics that teenage girls can relate to? - Check
Polished music video? - Check
Attractive female? - Check

Yeah, take Rihanna, Avril Lavigne, Keri Hilson, Lily Allen and Teaira Mari and throw them in a mixing pot of girl pop punk, and you got this Priscilla girl.

I know this has nothing to do with hip hop, but i said the same shit about kat deluna and kid cudi so watch what happens in a few months lol.

Outkast

My faviorate hip hop group.

Big Boi is droppin some heat...that single with mary was kind of wack but everything i heard after that was nothing but pure fire including this...

Sacrifice

Is good for the soul.

But love for yourself is required first.

Vibrate

"Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ also loved the church and gave Himself up for her..."
Ephesians 5:25

The church being a metaphor for "her" is questionable due to my lack of knowledge on biblical wordplay, however this quote has some ground to it.

The way I see, isn't using external examples. The "christ" (leader, not follower) in all of us himself up to the "church" (holy sanctum).

And the feminine term could also a play on words...(the woman in men, the sensitive side, the emotional side, the empathy etc...) Maybe we should embrace these in the proper light, use our sensitivity to help others heal wounds. I used to fear being emotional because of defense mechanism's and what people would think of me, but I embrace my emotions to understand people so i can deal with them better, cuz just like alot of kids my age, sometimes i dont get human beings.

Become your own leader, if you have a girl/wife, keep your woman pleased and only her. As a dude im aware of the temptations (devil), but your "church" (holy sanctum/body) is to be respected.

If some men were to look at their bodies as a sanctuary instead of a silhouette with a flesh rod attached to it, the self respect for themselves as men would also improve and so would their actions.

Im only speaking from my imperfections and flaws, in hopes that someone with the same problem can read this and relate, and understand...your not the only one with problems. There are alot of us out here...but we can change.

Reachin the highest point...send me the plan.../
Energy band, in one hell of a land...oh lord/
The guns, down...i remember the plan/
Energy band, in the levels of man...here it is.../

- "Energy Band" lyrics off the upcoming album "Amalgamate 2010" (sounds like some sci-fi movie shit lol) ill explain the title at the appropriate time.

The Temple

Take care of your body.

Humans & Monkeys

Humans always feel the desire to be happy
They think they deserve to be happy

Monkeys are happy without trying to be
They just exist

Jay-Z - Blueprint III

I think its a good album. Jay-z is a business man...i cant relate to his lyrics anymore, because his mind set is much different then mine. So as a fan of hip hop and an artist its easy to tell his motives, which is probably money and success. But that's his choice, i hate judging an artist's creation based on they're personal life, so i will admit i think Jay is very talented and deserves alot of the success he has.

I appreciate connecting with an artist through the music, its alot bigger than us anyway.

But the song of the night, another 2pac jam...this one is heavy. 2pac probably meant every word he said, which if you pay close attention to what he says, is a big statement. And very few hip hop artists carry that same passion and honesty today in my opinion.

Stay Cool

Who cares what people think of you?

Only yourself, if you choose to.

As for the real, stay cool. Be yourself.

It Was All A Dream

You are the 5 closest people to you. Always.

And in the end, we think of ourselves as individuals.

Crooked Cali Eyeballs

Crooked-I is very underrated.

R U Still Down?

2pac had enemies.

Something alot of us claim to have.

Drums, Snares, Bass

Music is the closest thing to perfection.

Alright

Feeling "alright" is just fine.

Waking Up

Ever hate how waking up sucks sometimes? You feel like "great...this shit again?". But what really sucks more is the fact that it doesnt matter if your happy or not. Your alive and you should be grateful about it, your still free.

Guess some shit never changes.

At the end of every Blog Post i want to throw a jam out at you guys...so today we have some fiyaaa from one half of the 'Kast crew...

Big Boi - Dubbs

Reasons

Reasons are like lions pushing you out of bed. Big fucking lions...and you look up like what the fuck dude? Im about to make something happen because of this? I need to wake up and get out of bed for this shit??? Ok. Its cool...atleast the wheel keeps turning.